November 8, 2011 – the fork in the road, the day I gave my life back to God. The BEST decision I have EVER made! Ever!!! If you haven’t read mine and Jake’s testimony… you can read it here. It’s kind of a fun read if you aren’t aware of our chaotic past. My whole life has changed, and I view everything through God tinted glasses. I actually started this blog to hopefully reach and encourage people to give their lives to God.
Looking back over the past seven years, there are so many things I just want to weep and thank God for. Mine and Jake’s marriage is probably the main thing. If you knew us B.C. then you know it was a crazy and drama filled relationship. If I hadn’t made the decision to break up with Jake and totally focus on getting my life right, we would never be where we are right now. We possibly would still be together, probably an on again/off again couple that was miserable. Instead we have a marriage that I am sooooooooooo thankful and grateful for! I literally ADORE Jake. He jokingly told me the other day, that I’m his Knox. Knox is so attached to me, and only wants me…and he happily reported that I’m that way with him. He loves it though…all three of his girls live for when he’s home…and he lights up with pride. But if I hadn’t made that super important decision so many years ago….I do not think it would be adoration I would be feeling towards my mister.
I also love that we are raising two girls in a Christian, Godly home. We pray over them daily, over our home daily. For protection and safety, and it is honestly such a huge security knowing that we serve a God who hears our prayers. I pray about everything. Even when I’m desperately searching the house for something, I’ll just say, “God….pleassseee help me find it!” and I usually always find it! He’s there….he is there for me. For all of us. It’s such a real relationship, and not some super stuffy, religious ordeal.
Something to think about – Whatever is… is. No matter what anyone believes or doesn’t believe will change what will happen after death. If someone doesn’t believe in gravity and jumps off a cliff… it doesn’t matter how strongly they deny it… they will drop to their death… or to a major injury! We can’t will into existence what we think will happen. If we’re wrong, we find out after we die. And no matter how much we deny or believe certain things, it won’t change what happens. With so many religions, beliefs and ideas out there, people are skeptical about the truth. I’ll tell you right now, that I have such an assurance about what will happen to be in the life following this one. I have to ask you…do you?
I grew up in a Christian home, and I have always believed in Heaven and Hell. So when I stopped living for Christ – I was TERRIFIED of dying! Jake and I would be driving home late at night, and I would always think about a car hitting us, and how I would not make it to Heaven if I died. It was so stupid, because I KNEW the truth, but I just continued to play Russian Roulette with my life. I remember the day after I re-accepted Christ into my heart, I woke up with SUCH a peace that morning. I vividly remember thinking, “If I die… I’M GOING TO HEAVEN!!!” It was the most freeing feeling in the world! I wasn’t scared of death anymore! Granted, if someone was holding a gun to my head, I’m sure I’d need to change my britches, but not because I didn’t know what would happen after death. I mean, I turn into a freaking psychopath when someone is pointing an aero soft gun at me, or even a taut rubber band! That is some intense fear, can we talk?!… and I imagine a real gun would be like a billion times scarier.
We live in very crazy times right now. With every day getting crazier and crazier. None of us know when our last day might be. Bombings, shootings, car wrecks, natural disasters, health problems… they take people’s lives EVERY SECOND. Most people don’t wake up the morning of, knowing that this day may be their last day on earth. James 4.14 says, “whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away.” Do you know where you will go when you die? If you were to breathe your last breath at this very second… are you proof positive you would make heaven your home? And if you don’t believe in heaven or hell… do you feel completely settled in your heart, with no fear of what will happen after life on Earth? God says that he has written it on every man’s heart, to know that he is real. He IS real – and he’s amazing!
No matter what your past is, how terrible you may or may not have been or are, God loves every single one of us the same. He is there no matter what. He doesn’t check out and turn off his phone for a few days when he needs space. He’s always there. The love we have for our children doesn’t even begin to scratch the surface of the love he has for us. I mean, he sent his only son to die on the cross for OUR sins, so that we could make heaven our home. Can you fathom doing that with your own child? And Jesus rose again after three days, defeated death – and now we can too – IF you accept him into your heart. I’ve seen people healed from prayer. I’ve watched as someone with severe back pain sat in a chair with their legs straight out, one leg being 2 inches shorter, say a prayer, and that leg just stretched out equal with the other, and the back pain was gone. And I’m not talking about them moving their hip to even out their feet – their leg FLIPPING grew out RIGHT in front of my eyes. A pastor in our fellowship had Hep A, B and C and needed a liver transplant, which is insanely expensive. He was starting chemo soon and went in for routine blood work before it all started – it was GONE, completely healed. Blood free of all disease. After being prayed for. Explain that science? His doctors sure couldn’t!
I know this is long. But if what I’ve talked about is something you’ve never heard of, believed in, or perhaps at one point you did, I beg you to try it. It’s so simple… you just have to say a simple prayer, asking Jesus into your heart. And that’s it! You don’t have to be baptized, you don’t have to do a special ceremony… you don’t have to do good deeds or work your way into heaven. You just have to ask, tell God you’re a sinner and you believe that he is the Lord and Savior, and that you’re sorry for your sins and want to be forgiven, and your life will be forever changed. I promise you that. He is the answer you so badly seek. When you feel that terrible lonely void in your life, it’s him that can fill it. At night when you lie there and never feel settled… it’s because you’re missing God. Don’t miss him any longer. He’ll change your world.